Kayla R.I.P Mommy loves you

Hello everyone, I know it have been a while but I have had a very trying week. Feb 7 I had my baby shower and it was great. Sunday I slept all day feeling weak and peeing all night. Monday I called off from work to go to the hospital to find out Kayla heart was not beating. It turns out that my sugar was well over 800 and I now have to take insulin. Feb 10 I pushed Kayla out at 7:50 am she was 6lbs and 11oz. I am very hurt right now. The hospital told me that my sugar have been well over the 200 mark for the last 3 months. How my Ob didn't know this I will never know. I am thinking of trying again soon... I am not trying to replace Kayla she will always be my first child. I need someone to talk to that this have happen to. I don't know if I am moving to fast but in my heart I feel I need to try again soon before I let this get the best of me and give up.

Oh my goodness...I am so very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what you are going through right now. Please know you're in my thoughts and prayers and that we're all here to talk to for anything. Keep us updated, as much as you're up to, on how you're doing.

My prayers are with you. I know that you are going through the most difficult thing ever right now. We are here for you for support. I am so sorry that you are going through this. Please lean on us in this time of need.

I am so sorry to hear this. Just know that whatever you decide we are here to support you. Only you can make the decision if its time to try again. You will know in your heart what you need to do.

We are here whenever you need to talk.

Hugs,
Dee

Oh my goodness...I am in complete shock right now! I cant even imagine how your feeling. I am so sorry to hear of your baby passing. I dont even know what to say. I hope you are able to find someone to talk to about this. I know this board will be praying for you.

Im so sorry, words just cant express how I feel for you now. We have been worried about you. I have lost a baby two years ago, she was a twin. I do understand the pain you are feeling. I will pray for you tonight and as long as you need. If you need to talk my email is ...stair70@hotmail.com Fell free to vent here or in a email to me. We are all here for each other, like sisters.
Please take care and you will be in my thoughts.
Big HUGS!!!!!
Andrea

Thank you all!!! I knew I could count on you all for support

Anytime, really. Please stay with us so we can be here for you.

I will stay... I want to share my next pregnancy with you all and hear about all the babies.

My heart is so broken for you. You, Kayla, and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

OMG!!! I am crying like a little baby right now!! I am so sorry to hear what you are going through!!!!

Lacie

Lacie don't crying she is in a better place she also saved my life. She is/was my little angel

I know that but I was hoping to see that we had found you and you were doing good. PLUS... I just got done reading the home birth story and I am just a big cry baby these days!!!

Destinykee, my heart, my thoughts and my prayers are with you. I am so very sorry for your loss.

Your strength is an inspiration.

Amy

I don't even know what to say. I am so sorry you're having to go through this, and I'm happy you want to stick around. We'll completely understand if you need breaks, but we will always be here for you. You sound like you're being very strong, but let yourself be weak too. Crying is healthy, even if you believe Kayla is in a better place.

I'm hoping that you get pregnant again as soon as you want. That helped me with my miscarriage, but of course, that is nothing like what you're going through now.

Take care of yourself!

Oh wow...I am so sorry!!! I just feel crushed. I admire your strength and courage in this difficult time! Kayla is, in deed, your precious little angel. My prayers are with you.

Fly high sweet little Angel and enjoy sitting in the lap of Jesus.

Lisa you are so right crying helps heals. I really don't want to get to feeling to low so I cry here and there and continue to move on.

I am so sorry. I don't even know what else to say...please know that I'm praying for you & your family. I agree with all the ladies, we are here for you and we hope that you stay around. Let us know if there's anything we can do for you.

Oh no, I was so hoping we had found you and you were going to have great news to report, as soon as I saw the subject line I got a huge knot in my throat. I am so sorry that you are going through this, my thoughts and prayers are with you as long as you need them. I admire your courage, and like others have said, only you will know when you are ready to try again, and you do have that little angel looking out for you up there, so she will help you along the way. We are always here to listen...

May Kayla forever show you little miracles throughout the day...

Im sorry for your lost. Your family is in my thoughts and prayes...We are all here for you if you need to talk.

Danielle

OH GOODNESS THAT MADE ME CRY TOO... im so so so very sorry for your loss, i cant even imagine what you must be feeling like, i dont think i would know what to do with myself if i was in your shoes.. My only advice would be to do speak with a counselor before you try for another baby, give yourself some time to greeve (sp). I will keep u in my prayers at night. God bless you and your family during this hard time.

I am so very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how you are feeling, but I will say that your posts show that you are a very strong woman. Take all the time you need for yourself and remember to let yourself heal emotionally while you continue to heal physically. You will know when the time is right to try again, don't let anyone influence your decision. I am glad you have decided to stay with us. Please come here anytime you need support. Prayers being sent your way.

Sweet DestinyKee--you are an amazing woman for wanting to stay around, but we are the ones who are blessed to have known you and gone through this with you...you are teaching us lessons in strength for sure! Thank you for your honesty and for sharing your heart. Your precious Kayla is indeed in a better place, but her absence is obvious--please know that I am so sorry for your loss of this beautiful baby girl. I pray that you will heal physically and emotionally and know when the time is right to start again.

Big hugs to you!!!! Stacey

I am so sorry for your loss. I don't know what else to say. My husband and I will pray for you and your family. God bless you. The only advice I have for you: "Cast your burden upon the Lord, and He will sustain you". Psalms 55:22